Friday, December 31, 2010

Thanksgiving

Life is short.

I just knew from Facebook that one of my Sunday school teacher had just passed away. Well, it's during October and I didn't even know that for the past 2 months.

When I read the testimonies of her daughter, I was captured by the words. Words of God are really powerful in the sense that they will give us hope and comfort when we are in a difficult situation. I was really upset at the first moment coz all the time I just try to avoid these stuffs.

Thinking of my family. Losing 2 men who impacted my life. I wonder whether I am healed from the pain. Watching some shows, seeing how people have a complete family. My heart just feels sad. It is undeniable that I have a great time in my family, just that sometimes I will still miss them.

In this year, I get lots of question about my dad. Sometimes, I will share the testimony with them. Sometimes, I even get perturbed by the whole incidents. Thinking back to the past that happened in my family, I believe that God has arranged it perfectly. These are the things that make me and my family to have a total dependence on Him. Although my childhood or teenhood was partly comprised of fear and sadness, I still thank Him for guiding me. I can never imagine that I can have the chance to study in Canada.

Going to church. Become more serious about my own religion. I just have to say: God really sort things up for me. I was just touched right now by the testimonies. And, I know what my new year resolution will be.

Having her as my Sunday school teacher is a lovely gift from God to me! Thanks! I shall catch up with her soon. Sometimes later.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

sigh

i think i have to do something again.

i just feel so tired.

i think i have to escape.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Boxing!

I did it again.

Boxing day. Lying on the bed. Waiting for the church service to start on 2 later.

Listening to Casting Crowns songs.

Looking at the window and there goes the sunlight.

The whole house is so quiet during Sundays, even the dogs are not barking.

Picking a book and going to flip the page that I want.

I think I really have to deal with it, or else, bad things are gonna happen again.

Please help me! :S